Bleh, Eh and Urgh
a.ka. It's my pity party and I'll whine if I want to.

Things I am not caring about or for:

1. Stupid programs that I am re-running for approximately the 5th time because changes I asked for eons ago were not done.

2. QCing reports. Ya’ll while the work has a decent place in the world, we are not curing cancer. Simmer down.

3. That people are getting worked up for any of this work stuff that is mundane.

4. Babying and hand-holding over things that should be known by now, or at least things that should be attempted without hand-holding or babying.

5. Small talk. Let it be enough for now that I am physically present. Or, instead, be sincere and if you aren’t feeling somewhat actually interested in talking to me, talk to someone else. (This applies to men and women, I'd rather be left alone than with someone who is only looking for someone better to talk to.)

6. Asking me for the hundredth time what I do for a living, make a weird face when I tell you, and proceed to make me get all involved in explaining it when you clearly don’t care. Just accept the vague job description and move on, or actually try to understand while acknowledging the fact that since you are not in the same industry maybe you do not know everything about it (I know I don’t).

7. Chronic joint pain.

8. That today I am feeling that I suck, am dumb, not good enough, and also pudgy. Caveat: I am allowed to have such days from time to time.

9. That it just too often seems I am seen only as someone who is good for a few laughs or a hug or sympathy and nothing else, and that I certainly don’t need the same in return. It can seem that people want to use me rather than be with me. (Not maliciously and maybe not intentionally, but 'use and move on' all the same).

10. That despite my efforts, too many of my clothes are either really snug or not fitting, and therefore limiting any ability I do have to be pretty.

11. ( and this is a big whiiiiiine...)I am never anybody's favorite. Ever. Boo on that.

12. My hair.

13. I am tired of not being pretty or elegant.

14. Being obnoxious really is my only talent, and that was more indoctrinated into me than anything else. Also, this replaces any charisma I may have ever had (none).

15. Never having 'my thing'. Not being good enough at anything totally sucks.

16. Wondering if I should ever look for a new job or new line of work entirely.

17. Nobody wants me, even platonically.

18. Prissy people.

19. Prissy people who think they are cool and/or edgy.

20. When other people think the prissy (and often fake) people are super cool. (also can be read: cooler than me).

21. Condescending crap.

22. The continuing lackluster workouts.

23. The scale that magically keeps going up instead of down, even if it went down before.

24. The pudges and bulges that WILL NEVER LEAVE ME ALONE. They insist on spilling out everywhere and I hate them.


The end.

p.s. I may lengthen this list throughout the day
p.p.s Let's also assume that what I'm saying is valid and that while normally I try to be very understanding of other people, this is one of those times when I am just worn down by it.