i am very tired today. and i'm having one of those mornings at work where things aren't working correctly and i've already tried to fix the problem more than once and it's still not working. this tries my patience. i was so tired this morning that the physical act of me hitting the snooze button in reality, became part of the dream i was constantly having for the 20 minutes or so my alarm was going off (not constantly, inbetween snooze-buttoning it). i just made a new verb! snooze-buttoning. quite the sport and i'm the champ:) i sit here and just daydream of the nap i'll have when i get home. except i'll feel guilty for not doing the dishes or putting away laundrey...so i'll just sit on the couch and veg and will my eyes to stay open. when did i get this old that i could be this tired?

random memories and daydreams have been hitting my brain as soon as i go to bed and preventing me from sleep. even if only 10 minutes prior i was about to be comatose on the couch, waiting for american idol to be over, since we had to wait for the game to be over in order to watch it.

just a few:

1.cute-boy falling in love with me. though i have decided to have a crush-from-afar, never going to happen kind of crush on him, i can still imagine:)
2.my girls from books and basketball showing up there when it starts up in the fall. this was inspired by lois possibly having a new phone number for them, since she runs the junior sunday school in thier congregation...
3. i remembered meeting shannan for the first time in my first college dorm room, her telling natalie and i about her rebel braids in high school.
4. 'the mob' of us following a full moon around campus.
5. toonie (deb) and i desperately trying to save one of the fish that my brownies had caught when we were camp counselors together one summer. it was herculean effort to get this fish off the hook and back into the water.

i know there were more, but i can't seem to recall right now...mostly it was my girls...i worried about them when they stopped coming, because i know that thier mom was struggling and that something tragic/terrible had happend in the not so distant past. i hope to be able to reconnect with them soon.