okay, well i should be getting ready to go to bed, since i've been really tired and i do have work in the morning. however, this is addictive and i can no longer help myself. a few random thoughts are just floating around in my head, mainly in response to friends' blogs/emails. one, i can only completely agree with sarah that is just annoying when people are so effusive about how much they love you and how great you are and then never make efforts to keep in touch/see you. sometimes, they just have to want you around enough, otherwise you make all the effort to put up a friendship that is lopsided. i dont' mean when people are indeed busy, or when sometimes keeping in touch will be naturally sparse, etc. but when you just want to ask, 'do you really, because this non-presence in my life is telling me different...'. yeah. sometimes it is too hard when the other party wants you to do all the work. that is that.

also, i have to disagree for the most part with whoever said that people don't ever change. people do change all the time. usually we hear it said when someone who has been a jerk continues to be one years later, but really, most people i think don't stay exactly the same. somtimes they change for the worse, sometimes for the better, and sometimes they are just different. sure, some elements stay the same, but really look back on people you have known for 10 years...is EVERYTHING the same? maybe they are more set in thier ways, or maybe just different. if people never changed, we would never grow and mature and learn from our mistakes. anyway. i am probably not making any sense whatsover, i am tired and my cardio kick-boxing instructor tried to kill my thighs in class tonight.

and you know what, i will never write as well as sam. foiled again!

goodnight...